Still Running uphill. Swimming against the current. I wish I weren't so Fucked. Feels like I'm stuck. Lost in a sea of mediocrity.

I’ve been the saddest person in the world (quite frankly, it really does feel that way). I’ve been so inlove with a person incapable of giving me what i needed out of a relationship that i not only stayed and waited for him to come around, but gladly gave away every last shred of my self-esteem to keep him. i’ve suffered an unhealthy and demoralizing relationship but then goes back to it in hopes that time spent apart has inspired him to love me enough to change..or even try.On the outside, i wore the illusion that i’m over it and that the end of our relationship was best for us. but that charade was all smoke and mirrors and empty words.Every breath hurts. Every morning i have to remind myself to get up… every night i have to remind myself to stop thinking. I rode this horse long after it had up and died. Until finally, I saw him with someone who isn’t me.. that I have to remind myself these things all over again.

Gone Forever...

I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you.

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels

7 things i realize in breaking Up...

...7. every race has a finish line

.. 6. breaking up is either letting go of a good one or kicking out a moron

.. 5. i lose a person bcoz more important one must enter

.. 4. LOVE has its own reason, DESTINY has its own way, and KARMA has its own judgment

.. 3. d 1 hu cries d worst:'(, is d one hu loves d most)

.. 2. TIme wont heal d heartache, but a NEW LOVE will surely do..

.. 1. its d end of d relationship, but not my life..

when u ceases to listen...

There are so many things that i would like to say to you, but i don't know how...
you're not listen'ng as well...

Fuck Life...